Lately…

…our washing machine is now in its permanent place next to our dryer.  This is very exciting for me.

…my attitude has been bad.  Sometimes I can’t seem to get my perspective right.  I wish I knew why.

…Christmas decorations are up, presents are purchased, wrapped, and under the tree…but I have little excitement about this season.  I just want it all over.  I don’t find joy in tradition or trappings or celebration.  This is a relatively new realization.  I’m still trying to sort out the good and bad of it.

…God is teaching me things.  I wish I could write about those things, but every time I try, my words sound hollow.  I wonder what that means…

…my children are unruly, restless, prone to foolishness.  It would be easier to address those issues in them if I didn’t possess them myself.  I lean heavily on God’s mercy these days.

…Ava has been very needy the last week or so.  Mostly just awake a lot and expecting to be held by me.  When I am already feeling like life is getting the best (or worst?) of me, this doesn’t help.  I just try to remind myself that most of the things that are not getting done are not really urgent anyway.  Sometimes the reminders help.

…I can’t imagine what my life would look like right now if Ava wasn’t generally a super easy baby.

…a year ago I could run 3-4 miles, now I can run about 1.5 miles.  I know having a new baby is a good reason, but it is easy to be discouraged nonetheless.

Though the fig tree may not blossom, Nor fruit be on the vines; Though the labor of the olive may fail, And the fields yield no food; Though the flock may be cut off from the fold, And there be no herd in the stalls– Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation. The Lord God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer’s feet, And He will make me walk on my high hills.  —Habakkuk 3:17-19