What is God teaching me?
patience
how to hold loosely
that He always has to be enough
that I can’t understand everything
that when my heart feels nothing good, He is still good
to persist in prayer no matter what circumstances say
that it’s okay to not plow forward, it’s okay to just stop and rest and let Him take care of me when I’m broken and weary
that the worst treatment I could ever experience…the biggest misunderstanding, the most unjust judgments, the most heartbreaking rejection – and more…are still unimaginably less than what He has endured for me and from me
that I need Jesus, always and desperately…there’s no life apart from Him, no hope apart from Him, no truth apart from Him…He is everything
But what things were gain to me, these I have counted loss for Christ. Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in Him, not having my own righteousness, which is from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which is from God by faith; that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death, if, by any means, I may attain to the resurrection from the dead. —Philippians 3:7-10
You are a gem. I am so proud of you and your heart for Jesus. This is truely beautiful.
Aww…thanks:). I should probably have said “what is God *trying* to teach me?” though. I have good moments when I am able to properly adjust my perspective, but a whole lot of moments, too, when life just seems completely unfair and hopeless. I guess it’s good that I have the bad moments, though, ’cause I otherwise might get a little prideful and not realize just how faithful God is to show Himself strong in my weakness.