I have a lot of thoughts going through my head these days.  Thoughts about how to love and communicate worth to someone, thoughts about being a part of a body, thoughts about prayer and seeing God’s face and hearing His voice, thoughts about where the balance might be between being the analytical person God made me, and being someone who sees good in spite of flaws.  These thoughts are all going through my head because they are topics that leave me unsettled.  Sometimes, reality doesn’t match up with explanation and I need to figure out where the breakdown is.

I have strong opinions on most of these things, without a doubt.  But, honestly?  Having something make sense is so much more important to me than holding tightly to my opinions.  It’s funny, though, how easily an attempt to find understanding can be misconstrued as stubbornness, or as some prideful ploy to not be proven wrong. 

Of course, my starting point is always going to be where I am at in my opinions or beliefs at a certain moment.  And, of course, there needs to be a compelling reason to draw me away from my position.  That’s common sense, isn’t it?  I mean, even when I know I’m not entirely right (or even at all right), there’s no logical reason to start heading down a different path until I know it is the right one, otherwise I might just get farther from the truth.

So, I won’t just accept someone’s word that something works.  I won’t be okay with a cursory explanation, or a Bible verse applied  too generically, or too specifically.  I’ll ask questions – not to disprove someone else’s argument, but to get them to really prove it to me.  It might seem hard-headed of me, but I need to be really convinced of something to believe it and walk in that belief.

That makes sense, right?