I’ve heard often enough that sheep are not the smartest animals. I assume it’s true. In the past I have bristled at the thought of being compared to a sheep for that reason. But lately? I feel like a sheep. I look at many of my attitudes and actions and realize they are just absolutely ridiculous, but at the same time feel completely helpless to change. I feel stupid, both for how I am and for not knowing how to fix myself.
More and more I note the tug of the proverbial shepherd’s hook, dragging me in a different direction than I am wont to go. I imagine sheep don’t have a naturally acquiescent response to such an action. I don’t either. I would rather have a reason carefully explained to me and then have a choice. There are times when God does that, and it works to make me change my course. The reality, though, is that there are sometimes reasons that I just won’t understand…or that I won’t agree with even if I do understand.
So, I get prodded, and tugged, and sometimes carried in a direction I would not choose for myself. In those moments, I am forced to remind myself of the fact that I cannot fathom His understanding…and that He is a good shepherd. He takes care of me when I don’t know enough to take care of myself. Even if there is some discomfort, it is for my good – to rescue me from unknown danger or to lead me to a better place.
I just need to trust.